Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
As I mentioned in my last post, it’s just been Bear and I
recently, as we’ve found that the Husby has a new work schedule for the time
being {hopefully getting back with us sooner than later}. Needless to say,
we’ve been all out of whack around here. I stopped working out {oops}, stopped
finding a craft and corresponding Bible verse to teach Bear, let him watch
movies all the time, we’ve been back and forth between visiting Dad, visiting
my parents, and being here at the apartment. I don’t cook much, laundry has
piled up, my daily devotional is now scattered to a couple days a week, I have
harbored anger against my husband for being gone, and I just feel all over the place. I’ve felt like a zombie
going in and out of routines, driving place to place, and the monotony of it
all has my mind clouded and foggy. This has all resulted in my feeling tired,
like a bad mom, a bad wife, and a bad Christian. This morning I dropped Bear
off at Mother’s Day out, came home, started laundry, and started praying. I
prayed that God would give my mind rest, that He would allow me to be still,
and show me what He needs me to read today. In other words, I needed help. I came across Lamentations 3:22-23, which to
me seems quite perfect, honestly.
If you are familiar with Lamentations, you know that it’s a
book composed of five poetic laments {corresponding to it’s five chapters} over
the destruction of Jerusalem by Babylon. In Chapter 3 though, we see a change.
The author {believed to be Jeremiah}, who has been mocked by his own people,
shunned by the Lord at a time, has this to say:
“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulnesss.”
He had not lost hope that His God is a God of compassion,
mercy, and faithfulness. What a beautiful illustration of how out complete
turmoil and chaos comes compassion from the Lord. By the grace of God, this
crazy busy and mundane lifestyle will not consume me. The Lord has compassion
for me that never fails. The word compassion literally means to be moved in the
heart out of love for another. Meaning that my God is moved in His heart when
he thinks about me. Me! That in and of itself is encouragement enough to keep
going. To revel in His love and compassion for me. That he loves and cares
about me that much. It brings me to tears knowing that we have a God who loves
us so much that He will never turn his back on us, regardless of any efforts on
our part to turn our backs on Him. It brings me to tears knowing that amidst
all of the mundane tasks of life-getting caught up in the nitty-gritty of motherhood that no one ever tells you about {feeling trapped and lonely} and cleaning
up, driving from here to there, my blatant disregard for all of the blessings
He has put into my life- every morning brings with it a day to receive God’s love
and start fresh.
I encourage you to accept that God loves you deeply, and
that His compassion for you never fails. You are constantly on His heart.
I encourage you to not go through your days, having a cloudy
mind, forgetting that each day is a day to start anew by God’s faithfulness to
you, his child.
Let that drive you. Let that fact drive you to be
compassionate to others because your God gives you compassion. Let it drive you
to find the grace in each of your commonplace chores, and to seek His beauty
throughout your every day.
